Diamond bullet right through my forehead
Nu är jag färdig med "diplomen" som blev något helt annat,fast på andra sidan är det mer diplomliknande,alla blir väl glada av att få ett oväntat ouijabräde tänker jag.
Kan inte visa er baksidan då det är mycket hemligt.
Är för övrigt jättedålig på att hålla oviktiga hemligheter,har inte ens några egna hemligheter på grund av detta,är en öppen bok,ljuger nästan aldrig
En sak jag helt hade glömt bort är att jag ska göra någon slags konstnärlig utsmyckning imorgon på Bar10 på Konstepedemin,det var därför jag var på Hornbach igår.
(självklart störande sak som hindrar mig från mitt viktigare arbete)
Förhoppningsvis ligger det inte fler glömda saker jag måste göra nu inuti min hjärna,vilket påminner mig att jag på flygplanet från Shanghai såg filmen "Still Alice".
Alzheimers kan alltså hända när som helst,men det var inte det mest skrämmande med den filmen.
Under mitt arbete i Ouijabräde fabriken tänkte jag på Colonel Kurtz i Apocalypse now och detta:
" I've seen horrors... horrors that you've seen. But you have no right to call me a murderer. You have a right to kill me. You have a right to do that... but you have no right to judge me. It's impossible for words to describe what is necessary to those who do not know what horror means. Horror... Horror has a face... and you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your friends. If they are not, then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies! I remember when I was with Special Forces... seems a thousand centuries ago. We went into a camp to inoculate some children. We left the camp after we had inoculated the children for polio, and this old man came running after us and he was crying. He couldn't see. We went back there, and they had come and hacked off every inoculated arm. There they were in a pile. A pile of little arms. And I remember... I... I... I cried, I wept like some grandmother. I wanted to tear my teeth out; I didn't know what I wanted to do! And I want to remember it. I never want to forget it... I never want to forget. And then I realized... like I was shot... like I was shot with a diamond... a diamond bullet right through my forehead. And I thought, my God... the genius of that! The genius! The will to do that! Perfect, genuine, complete, crystalline, pure. And then I realized they were stronger than we, because they could stand that these were not monsters, these were men... trained cadres. These men who fought with their hearts, who had families, who had children, who were filled with love... but they had the strength... the strength... to do that. If I had ten divisions of those men, our troubles here would be over very quickly. You have to have men who are moral... and at the same time who are able to utilize their primordial instincts to kill without feeling... without passion... without judgment... without judgment! Because it's judgment that defeats us."
(Borde alltså göra 1000 stycken bräden)